thoughts and feelings

Selamat Hari Raya
my second time not spending these holidays with family
staying at the college all by alone for 2 days
i keep making the same mistakes like last year
keep owing other people
worrying and scaring that one day they will ask a payback from me
these two days are calming for me
no distractions no noisy sounds
having my sleep anytime
waking at anytime
doing anything i want
having the strong intention and desire to move out
but where can i go without the expensive technology
there is only one place available
i always insist on single room regardless how expensive it is
pointless to move out and sharing room with another person
i cant sleep with light on at night
i cant study with people keep talking
i cant stand for people keep 'giving opinion' on my lifestyle
upm is really bad in accommodation
expecting 4 students to live in a room
well, it may sound OK but please at least spare a bigger space
not just a bed, a chair, a desk and a wardrobe
the place is so limited
u will hit other stuff and roommates when u walk around
no place to hang shirts
limited wireless coverage
the uni is merely offering students to overnight
not for the living of students
students need to study and online
well, there are many students able to get used with this 'condusive' environment
therefore the above arguments are merely my personal opinions
everything is subjective depending how u look into the issue
probably i am not into it
i shall leave, not knowing the exact time and place
leaving far for this complicated human relationship
lies selfishness troubling people
who never admit the things they have done
kept asking others to do something that they wont do in behind
if u care, just tell in out
stop telling lies to protect yourselves and hazardous to the people around
sick of these stupid and unreasonable lies
i am what i am today because the choices i made
not knowing the consequences
all i can do now is bare everything
there are always some reasons in behind of everything
i do agree
i do understand
so please stay away from me
or else, i will sure stay away from u
wondering why people get older there are more and more complicated stuff
there is always one saying
NO HOPE NO DISAPPOINTMENT
indeed
as long as not mixing with everything & everyone too close
u wont feel the pain
we come together because we have to
not because we want to
when everything pass
we are free to leave
this is all about malaysia uni life
i do agree of a senior's opinion
Uni cgpa is evaluating how good u remember the things u memorise the previous night of exam
i starts to agree that working life is all about dealing with different kinds of people
this is what uni life all about
throwing everyone in a complicated human relationship
so that u wont get shocked in the future
my friend is right
human relationship will exist as long as there are people around
surviving is merely how effective u deal with people
because by doing that
your cgpa will be excellent
your position in an organization will be high
your lecturer likes u and gimmes u a good grades
your friends love to hang around with u
your resumes will be as perfect as it is!